{"id":219,"date":"2022-10-18T00:08:41","date_gmt":"2022-10-18T00:08:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/?p=219"},"modified":"2022-10-27T06:30:22","modified_gmt":"2022-10-27T06:30:22","slug":"fighting-on-my-own","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/?p=219","title":{"rendered":"Fighting On My Own"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I need to tell you something,<br>But I just don\u2019t know how,<br>You make me so happy,<br>But I am really struggling with life right now,<br>You said I can tell you anything,<br>But I\u2019m too scared to,<br>As I don\u2019t want you realise how damaged I am,<br>And for me to lose you,<br>You agreed to marry me,<br>And now you are my wife,<br>But right now my depression,<br>Is cutting through me like a rusty knife,<br>I love you, so much,<br>And I\u2019m just pushing you away,<br>Because when you ask what\u2019s wrong?<br>I just say \u201cnothing, go away\u201d,<br>We made an oath,<br>Through sickness and in health,<br>Yet I\u2019m the one breaking that,<br>By fighting this by myself,<br>I fight everything by myself<br>I suppose I\u2019ve always had to,<br>But now I\u2019m fighting,<br>Not to lose you,<br>All I want to do is to run and hide,<br>As I\u2019m finding life so hard,<br>I know you would help me through this,<br>If only I dropped my guard,<br>Mental health has tried defeating me so many times,<br>And I have to fight every single day,<br>I will ask for the help that I know you\u2019ll give,<br>Just not today\u2026\u2026\u2026\u2026\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Wrote on 01\/09\/2018<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I need to tell you something,But I just don\u2019t know how,You make me so happy,But I am really struggling with life right now,You said I can tell you anything,But I\u2019m too scared to,As I don\u2019t want you realise how damaged I am,And for me to lose you,You agreed to marry me,And now you are my&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-219","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poems"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/219","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=219"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/219\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":282,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/219\/revisions\/282"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=219"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=219"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=219"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}