I don\u2019t know who I am any more,
I ain\u2019t the person I once saw,
I just want to fade away and go,
But why? That I don\u2019t know,
I\u2019m broken and have been for a long time,
I want calm but only more demons I find,
All I want is for inner peace,
But I know I\u2019ll only ever get that when I am deceased,
I\u2019m drunk as fuck tonight,
Begging to be wanted but with no one in sight,
I\u2019m fucked up and off my face,
It\u2019s time for me to leave this human rat race,
I see the reaper and he\u2019s lonely,
I see him and him only,
I just need to cuddle and to cry,
Even if it means I have to surrender my life,
The reaper is stood at my front gate,
Asking for a connection, both lover and mate,
We both need to just be alone together,
Two broken damaged souls, like birds of a feather,
So I invite him in and make him a drink,
No words are spoken with no room to think,
We chat and we cry together alone,
I feel close to him, the closest to someone that I\u2019ve ever known,
We have a few more drinks, me and Grim,
And although I\u2019m already broken, I find peace within,
I tell him that I can\u2019t take anymore,
As he picks my mentally broken ass up off the floor,
We embrace both crying,
We cuddle both dying,
Then my speaker plays a song we both like,
And we decide to conclude our emotional night
But not before the end of the song,
We both smile knowing that death won\u2019t be long,
So, I\u2019m dirty dancing with death,
So dance with me Reaper, till my last breath,
You have peace deep within,
So Dance with me, my sweet grim,
You\u2019re the only who truly knows me,
So dance and let my soul be free,
It will be my last ever dance with someone true,
And I\u2019m so glad it was with you,
So get close to me and let the music take control,
Show me inner peace and I\u2019ll trade you my soul,
My phone is turned off and the lights are down low,
I\u2019m dirty dancing with death with only one place left to go,
You don\u2019t see me as broken or a mess,
You see me as innocent and pure, someone who\u2019s at their best,
The song comes to an end,
And I smile as death is now my friend,
I know my time hear is now done,
And I no longer have to run,
I will finally be able to rest,
And with inner peace I shall be blessed,
He smiles and holds my hand,
And says \u201cI got to do this, I hope you understand\u201d
It all goes dark and my eyes close,
And what happened, I really don\u2019t know,
But I wake up 4 hours later,
With my head clear and my understanding greater,
I look around and I cannot believe,
That he didn\u2019t take my life but instead saved me,
Next to my bed was a simple note,
In words that I or he wrote,
Weather it right, weather it wrong,
He put \u201cI enjoyed last night, stay strong\u201d
So, I dirty danced with death,
Hoping he would take my last breath,
But instead,
I\u2019m now more alive than I have ever been dead.
Wrote on 17\/11\/2022<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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