{"id":497,"date":"2023-03-12T00:23:38","date_gmt":"2023-03-12T00:23:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/?p=497"},"modified":"2023-03-12T00:23:38","modified_gmt":"2023-03-12T00:23:38","slug":"burdon-beyond-my-sins","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/?p=497","title":{"rendered":"Burdon Beyond My Sins"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">No matter where I go,<br>No matter what I do,<br>I feel like I\u2019m a burden,<br>Not a part of all of you,<br>I feel like an alien,<br>I feel all alone,<br>I feel like I\u2019m unwanted by society,<br>And this overwhelming feeling is all I have ever known,<br>Maybe I would be better off dead,<br>Maybe it would be better if I wasn\u2019t here,<br>Cos I\u2019m tired of this constant feeling of isolation,<br>And tired of crying my tears,<br>I know I\u2019m too much at times,<br>Needy and insecure,<br>But I feel like spending time with me,<br>For all of you, is a chore,<br>I always feel in the way,<br>A feeling I have deep within,<br>A problematic fuck up,<br>I\u2019m a burden beyond my sins,<br>I don\u2019t feel part of this world,<br>I am a socially inept outcast,<br>And I convince myself that if someone wants my friendship,<br>That it\u2019s fake and won\u2019t last,<br>I feel like my words are not my words,<br>That I speak gibberish and stand out,<br>A crazy man on the loose,<br>A noticeable weirdo who shouldn\u2019t be let out,<br>I\u2019m alone in the shadows of life,<br>Forever the beast no one needs,<br>And whilst you are all pretty flowers,<br>I am nothing but a weed,<br>And no matter what I do in life,<br>This alone feeling never goes away,<br>So from birth till my death,<br>A lonely burden I shall stay.<br><br>Wrote on: 10\/03\/2023<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>No matter where I go,No matter what I do,I feel like I\u2019m a burden,Not a part of all of you,I feel like an alien,I feel all alone,I feel like I\u2019m unwanted by society,And this overwhelming feeling is all I have ever known,Maybe I would be better off dead,Maybe it would be better if I wasn\u2019t&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-497","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poems"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/497","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=497"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/497\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":501,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/497\/revisions\/501"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=497"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=497"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=497"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}