{"id":516,"date":"2023-04-10T23:19:26","date_gmt":"2023-04-10T23:19:26","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/?p=516"},"modified":"2023-04-10T23:19:26","modified_gmt":"2023-04-10T23:19:26","slug":"cos-im-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/?p=516","title":{"rendered":"Cos I&#8217;m Me"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Will I ever know the reason?<br>Why my mind has performed treason,<br>Why I hate myself so much,<br>Why I beg for a painful death and such,<br>Why I feel not worthy of life,<br>Why I slice myself with razor and knife,<br>Why my demons never stop,<br>Why my life for death I\u2019d swap,<br>Why I drink until I\u2019m deep into an abyss,<br>Why with even cocaine I don\u2019t find internal bliss,<br>Why do I never feel good enough?<br>Drink and drug it until I feel rough,<br>Why do put myself down all the time,<br>Why peace, I will never find,<br>Why the past haunts,<br>Whilst my demons taunt,<br>Why do I hate my waking soul,<br>Why do I never feel complete or whole,<br>Why will my demons never leave me be,<br>The answer to all this, is because I\u2019m me,<br>Me is the problem, the reason I suffer,<br>Me and only me and not a single other,<br>So if you see me with a sad lonesome looking face,<br>Depressed and moping about the place,<br>Don\u2019t ask why I can\u2019t ever be free,<br>I\u2019m just tired of the weight of me.<br><br>Wrote on 08\/04\/2023<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Will I ever know the reason?Why my mind has performed treason,Why I hate myself so much,Why I beg for a painful death and such,Why I feel not worthy of life,Why I slice myself with razor and knife,Why my demons never stop,Why my life for death I\u2019d swap,Why I drink until I\u2019m deep into an abyss,Why&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-516","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poems"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/516","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=516"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/516\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":519,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/516\/revisions\/519"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=516"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=516"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=516"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}