A new razor awaits,
Aftershave at the ready,
A deep breath in,
To make my hand steady,
A little tear,
And the slightest of grins,
Time to face the demons,
That takes residence within,
One slice for punishment,
Another for the pain,
One slice to remember who I am,
Another to forget my name,
One slice cos this is what I deserve,
Another cos I\u2019m ok,
One slice cos this is my escape,
Another cos this is my only way,
The blood drips down my leg,
The red tears of my soul,
A spray of aftershave,
Agony and pain is my goal,
I breathe heavy,
I tremble and I shake,
Screaming \u201cYou deserve this\u201d
But just adding more to my self-hate,
One slice cos I\u2019m numb,
Another cos I\u2019m cold inside,
One slice cos I want to live,
Another cos I want to die,
One slice for the memories that haunt me,
Another for my future mistakes,
One slice for what life offers me,
Another for what it takes,
I try not to self-harm anymore,
But not cos I\u2019m strong willed or tough,
But its cos if I started slicing,
I\u2019d never be able to cut deep enough.
Wrote on: 18\/06\/2023<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
A new razor awaits,Aftershave at the ready,A deep breath in,To make my hand steady,A little tear,And the slightest of grins,Time to face the demons,That takes residence within, One slice for punishment,Another for the pain,One slice to remember who I am,Another to forget my name,One slice cos this is what I deserve,Another cos I\u2019m ok,One slice…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-578","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poems"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/578","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=578"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/578\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":622,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/578\/revisions\/622"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=578"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=578"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=578"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}