I wake up everyday,
And I say thank you cos I woke up,
But secretly I wish that I didn\u2019t,
So can someone speak to life\u2026. Cos I think there\u2019s been a mix up,
Cos lately I\u2019m annoyed,
That death didn\u2019t take me,
Cos at least if I was gone,
My head could finally be free,
I\u2019m tired,
Tired and worn out,
I\u2019m drained and exhausted,
And all I want is out,
I feel numb and dead inside,
All my emotions, lost and gone,
Yet sometimes all of a sudden I\u2019ll breakdown crying,
Like the chorus of a broken song,
All I\u2019m doing lately is drinking,
Cos it\u2019s the only time I\u2019m not actually here,
But I\u2019m drinking so much,
That I smell petrol in my tears,
My friends say \u201cCall me if you need me\u201d,
\u201cYou know I\u2019m here for you\u201d,
But they don\u2019t realise that I\u2019m not here anymore,
Plus if you wanna pretend you knew me, you could always get my name in a R.I.P tattoo,
Cos in my head I\u2019m already fucking gone,
Even if I do manage to pull myself out of this,
I\u2019m truly gone in the wind baby,
And now I\u2019m just another statistic to add to the list,
So even though this poem isn\u2019t finished,
I\u2019m tired of writing,
I always swap a razor for a pen,
But not when I\u2019m sick and tired of fighting,
So I will pray for death to come,
Before I go to sleep,
Like I have I done,
Every damn night for the past 3 weeks,
And If I do wake up tomorrow,
I\u2019ll just have to cry some more,
Cos unfortunately,
I\u2019ve been here way too many times before,
I have major depression and I\u2019m used to feeling like this,
And even tho I want out, I\u2019m not that lucky for death to hurry,
But remember people, It\u2019s not now but the day I finally smile,
That\u2019s when you need to worry.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Wrote on 25\/11\/2023<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I wake up everyday,And I say thank you cos I woke up,But secretly I wish that I didn\u2019t,So can someone speak to life\u2026. Cos I think there\u2019s been a mix up, Cos lately I\u2019m annoyed,That death didn\u2019t take me,Cos at least if I was gone,My head could finally be free, I\u2019m tired,Tired and worn out,I\u2019m…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-715","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poems"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/715","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=715"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/715\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":718,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/715\/revisions\/718"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=715"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=715"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=715"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}