I feel like I\u2019m at a standstill,
Whilst I watch this world rush past me,
I\u2019m trying to just take a brief moment,
But a blink feels like an eternity,
I\u2019m still trying to figure it out what I actually want from my life,
But I don\u2019t think I will ever know,
So I settle for the smallest moments of happiness,
But the lack of self-love is starting to show,
I really don\u2019t expect much from my limited time,
I just want a smile that is real,
To look forward to my tomorrow,
And to understand that it\u2019s ok that, this is how I feel,
But this world is going by me so goddamn fast,
And my life\u2026.. even quicker,
I spend every damn day trying to repair and get better,
But in reality I am only getting sicker,
I am so tired and warn out,
My body and mind needs to rest its weary frown,
But I might not actually ever be able to start up again,
If I ever did slow down,
Don\u2019t get me wrong, I won\u2019t ever give up,
Well, I hope I don\u2019t anyway,
But the demands of life has made me so fatigued and tired,
That I needed to rest on a day long before yesterday,
And I\u2019m doing what life asks of me,
Which is not living my life my way,
And all based on the promise,
That I might actually be able to finally rest one day,
I suppose I just need to escape the madness,
The pure Insanity that is now called normal and mundane,
But I am simply just the soul of a single cell,
That was given a time slot, number and a name,
So other than moments like this,
I don\u2019t think or question it too much,
Cos my whole existence compared to earths,
Barely makes a dent or touch,
So this world can keep spinning,
And I will spend the rest of my days on my feet,
And I look forward to the fear of the unknown,
The day I might actually be able to sleep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Wrote on: 18\/12\/2023<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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