{"id":746,"date":"2024-02-11T13:56:13","date_gmt":"2024-02-11T13:56:13","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/?p=746"},"modified":"2024-02-11T13:56:13","modified_gmt":"2024-02-11T13:56:13","slug":"purgatory-on-my-sofa","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/?p=746","title":{"rendered":"Purgatory On My Sofa"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I feel trapped in the nothingness,<br>Lost in a void of vague,<br>And the calmness of it all,<br>Circles me like a plague,<br><br>All I want to do is sleep,<br>Drift away in the seas and the skies,<br>And I think if I died right now,<br>I don\u2019t even think I\u2019d realise,<br><br>Lost, Alone,<br>Numb and removed,<br>With no fight in me left,<br>Cos the survivor inside of me was smothered and abused,<br><br>I can\u2019t cry,<br>I can\u2019t even think,<br>Free falling into a standstill of nothing,<br>Going in no direction all whilst I do nothing but sink,<br><br>My eyes are heavy,<br>My heartbeat is still,<br>I\u2019m nothing but an empty shell,<br>A broken man who forgot what it\u2019s like to even be able to feel,<br><br>I\u2019m in a state of hollow,<br>Deep in an empty womb of bleak,<br>With no thoughts nor words left in my mind,<br>With no ability or strength left inside me to even speak,<br><br>I\u2019m floating in a dream of withdrawn,<br>As I crumble into the sofa powerless and deprived,<br>I forfeit my strength to carry on,<br>And I let the fates of depression decide,<br><br>I\u2019m gone,<br>All my strength and fight depleted,<br>And I lay deep in purgatory on my sofa, <br>Broken and defeated.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Wrote on: 11\/02\/2024<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I feel trapped in the nothingness,Lost in a void of vague,And the calmness of it all,Circles me like a plague, All I want to do is sleep,Drift away in the seas and the skies,And I think if I died right now,I don\u2019t even think I\u2019d realise, Lost, Alone,Numb and removed,With no fight in me left,Cos&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-746","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poems"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/746","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=746"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/746\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":752,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/746\/revisions\/752"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=746"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=746"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tdp.mtse.co.uk\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=746"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}