I rest my eyes,
I try to sleep,
But the demons always follow me,
And in my dreams they creep,
Pain and punishment,
Is all I\u2019ve ever really known,
I try to get better each and every day,
But the demons will always call my mind their home,
So in the darkness,
My head will always be,
They will make sure of it,
By confusing my thoughts and blinding everything I see,
My friends and family don\u2019t understand,
So I push them all away,
I\u2019m used to fighting the devil in the darkness alone,
And the darkness is where I\u2019ll always stay,
I did try to get help though,
But their advice only comes from books,
They will never be able to fully understand the terror I face,
Those medical helpers\/The pharmaceutical crooks,
I sit in the middle of the room,
Completely lost in demonic thought,
The evil and madness slithers all around me,
My attention and focus has been caught,
The screams that I hear,
That forever frightens my ear,
Have now actually become a comfort to me,
Sanity and logic being nowhere near,
The demons forever talk to me,
Which is more than what you lot are actually willing to do,
Friends from fear\u2026\u2026 huh\u2026\u2026 who knew,
I do still manage to life my life quite well though,
I only cut myself every now and again,
And I barely notice the blood anymore,
But then again I suppose I have been cutting since I was ten,
No one really notices I have schizophrenia,
Unless I talk about it of course,
I just quietly sit in the corner pretending to be normal,
Whilst my head swims around in a concoction of mental health Bolognese sauce,
It\u2019s quite funny but the demons actually give me the want and the reason to try and repair,
And not give up and too fight,
It helps me stay strong in this messed up world,
So I suppose\u2026. from the darkness there comes light,
Schizophrenia,
Such a feared word,
I am neither the devil nor his advocate,
Your knowledge, although very little I can guarantee you, is blurred,
I do not practice witchcraft or ruin your crops,
And the only person to fear the evil in my head is me,
But at least when you burn me at the stake,
The demons might finally set this tortured boy free.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Wrote on: 31\/05\/2024
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