WARNING: Sensitive Subject…….

I wrote a poem about the regrets of suicide…… This is a very powerful poem and reader discretion is advised.

Please remember Party People…… You are ALL stronger than you realise and you never know what is round the corner. There are bad times and there is also good. Don’t let the darkness lie about the light not returning cos I guarantee you it will….. it just takes time.

Stay Strong,
You’ve Got this….

Now the Poem in question…….

Title: The Words From A Survivor That Gave Up Surviving

It’s been a hard day,
It’s took a lot out of me,
Yesterday and the day before was exactly the same,
I know I’ll never be free,

My thoughts have overwhelmed me,
All saying exactly the same,
I have to end it all,
My spark has gone, I’ve lost my flame,

I got no one to call,
And I don’t want to burden them anyway,
I’m fighting this all on my own,
They wouldn’t understand…… and I know they wouldn’t stay,

I can’t cope now,
And I can’t keep pretending that I’m ok,
This pain is too much,
I need it all to stop……. And this…. This is the only way……

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And now as my soul floats upon the breeze,
I relentlessly watch the tears fall from those that I adore,
They mourn their fallen survivor,
And they will cry forevermore,

Now I’m with the angels above,
When I thought I was destined to be below,
I wish I spoke to the ears that would’ve listened,
Cos I convinced them I was doing ok, but all their broken hearts now know,

I float on the clouds in the heavenly skies,
As they relentlessly blame themselves,
I realise my family and my friends truly did have my back,
As they lay my ashes on their shelf,

And as time passes them all,
I watch all their lives gradually fall apart,
And I realise that the demons that took from me, my life,
Are the same demons that are now taking the strength away from their hearts,

All I wanted was for my pain to stop,
And I thought suicide was the only way,
But as I watch all of them below,
I realise all I did was send my demons their way,

A day they all used to celebrate,
Is a day they now all mourn,
I chucked away my life,
And with it, even more hurt was born,

I never truly realised how strong I was,
I only saw myself as weak,
I had power in my voice,
But I was just too scared to speak,

I convinced myself that death was the only way,
When in fact there was so many more,
And I wish, oh god do I wish,
That I realised all of this just moments before,

Cos the strange thing is, is that I was a natural born survivor,
And I foolishly gave up the fight,
And I’ve also realised that there is a fate worse than death,
And that…. is hindsight.

Wrote on: 10/12/2024