No matter where I go,
No matter what I do,
I feel like I’m a burden,
Not a part of all of you,
I feel like an alien,
I feel all alone,
I feel like I’m unwanted by society,
And this overwhelming feeling is all I have ever known,
Maybe I would be better off dead,
Maybe it would be better if I wasn’t here,
Cos I’m tired of this constant feeling of isolation,
And tired of crying my tears,
I know I’m too much at times,
Needy and insecure,
But I feel like spending time with me,
For all of you, is a chore,
I always feel in the way,
A feeling I have deep within,
A problematic fuck up,
I’m a burden beyond my sins,
I don’t feel part of this world,
I am a socially inept outcast,
And I convince myself that if someone wants my friendship,
That it’s fake and won’t last,
I feel like my words are not my words,
That I speak gibberish and stand out,
A crazy man on the loose,
A noticeable weirdo who shouldn’t be let out,
I’m alone in the shadows of life,
Forever the beast no one needs,
And whilst you are all pretty flowers,
I am nothing but a weed,
And no matter what I do in life,
This alone feeling never goes away,
So from birth till my death,
A lonely burden I shall stay.

Wrote on: 10/03/2023