With a cigarette hanging out my mouth,
I’m a damaged man riddled with mental health,
I pour myself a drink at 10am,
To drown myself out and them,
I huddle on the floor,
Begging for no more,
Never hungry, barely eating,
Losing so much weight, at least fatness I’m beating,
Put my iPod on random,
Manic laughing listening to sad music, me and crazy in tandem,
Smoke 40 a day,
Drink as much as I can put away,
Live in the prison I’m supposed to call my home,
The loneliest prison I have ever known,
14 hours of this,
Crying, smoking and on the piss,
Whilst my demons hold me tight,
I cry myself to sleep each night,
My day to day,
Not much to say,
I’m a drunken mess,
Who to my own suicide I say yes,
In a rut, depression I greet,
Today, yesterday, tomorrow, Repeat.

Wrote on: 12/04/2023