I did my time,
Serving in hell,
I was a sinner,
And so I fell,
I dug my grave,
And I jumped in,
I was prepared to die,
For all my sins,
Suicide was a certainty,
I accepted my fate,
I didn’t know how to love,
All I knew was hate,
It drove me there,
My own head,
Dying wasn’t a problem,
As inside I was already dead,
This mean old world,
Had swallowed me whole,
And all I kept saying,
Was “Lord, save my soul”,

The devil himself,
He tempted me in,
Like a sucker I believed,
It would help my sin,
I asked myself,
When will this all stop?
As the fire in my hell,
Was getting far too hot,
I had a damaged mind,
And my soul was gone,
All this drinking and snorting,
Had been going on for far too long,
I would cry myself to sleep,
And I would wake up screaming,
And I could see my own death,
When I was dreaming,
This mean old world,
Had swallowed me whole,
And all I kept saying,
Was “Lord, save my soul”,

But He sent his angel,
To save me,
I didn’t know what to do,
But I was finally free,
And as I sit here,
With a smile upon my face,
I can’t help but remember,
That I was in such an awful place,
And as tears roll down,
My shaking, jittering cheek,
I realise just how strong I actually am,
And how much they said I was weak,
The devil nearly defeated me,
In spectacular fashion,
But my angel gave me the courage,
The fight and the passion,
This mean old world,
Had swallowed me whole,
And all kept saying,
Was “Lord, save my soul”,

In order to fight your demons,
You need the strength of a god,
You my angel,
Never walked the steps I trod,
But you were waiting for me,
One way or another,
I love you forever and always,
My friend, my angel, my lover.

Wrote on 31/12/2018