I need to tell you something,
But I just don’t know how,
You make me so happy,
But I am really struggling with life right now,
You said I can tell you anything,
But I’m too scared to,
As I don’t want you realise how damaged I am,
And for me to lose you,
You agreed to marry me,
And now you are my wife,
But right now my depression,
Is cutting through me like a rusty knife,
I love you, so much,
And I’m just pushing you away,
Because when you ask what’s wrong?
I just say “nothing, go away”,
We made an oath,
Through sickness and in health,
Yet I’m the one breaking that,
By fighting this by myself,
I fight everything by myself
I suppose I’ve always had to,
But now I’m fighting,
Not to lose you,
All I want to do is to run and hide,
As I’m finding life so hard,
I know you would help me through this,
If only I dropped my guard,
Mental health has tried defeating me so many times,
And I have to fight every single day,
I will ask for the help that I know you’ll give,
Just not today……………

Wrote on 01/09/2018