I don’t know who I am any more,
I ain’t the person I once saw,
I just want to fade away and go,
But why? That I don’t know,
I’m broken and have been for a long time,
I want calm but only more demons I find,
All I want is for inner peace,
But I know I’ll only ever get that when I am deceased,

I’m drunk as fuck tonight,
Begging to be wanted but with no one in sight,
I’m fucked up and off my face,
It’s time for me to leave this human rat race,

I see the reaper and he’s lonely,
I see him and him only,
I just need to cuddle and to cry,
Even if it means I have to surrender my life,

The reaper is stood at my front gate,
Asking for a connection, both lover and mate,
We both need to just be alone together,
Two broken damaged souls, like birds of a feather,
So I invite him in and make him a drink,
No words are spoken with no room to think,
We chat and we cry together alone,
I feel close to him, the closest to someone that I’ve ever known,
We have a few more drinks, me and Grim,
And although I’m already broken, I find peace within,
I tell him that I can’t take anymore,
As he picks my mentally broken ass up off the floor,
We embrace both crying,
We cuddle both dying,
Then my speaker plays a song we both like,
And we decide to conclude our emotional night
But not before the end of the song,
We both smile knowing that death won’t be long,

So, I’m dirty dancing with death,
So dance with me Reaper, till my last breath,
You have peace deep within,
So Dance with me, my sweet grim,
You’re the only who truly knows me,
So dance and let my soul be free,
It will be my last ever dance with someone true,
And I’m so glad it was with you,
So get close to me and let the music take control,
Show me inner peace and I’ll trade you my soul,
My phone is turned off and the lights are down low,
I’m dirty dancing with death with only one place left to go,
You don’t see me as broken or a mess,
You see me as innocent and pure, someone who’s at their best,

The song comes to an end,
And I smile as death is now my friend,
I know my time hear is now done,
And I no longer have to run,
I will finally be able to rest,
And with inner peace I shall be blessed,
He smiles and holds my hand,
And says “I got to do this, I hope you understand”
It all goes dark and my eyes close,
And what happened, I really don’t know,
But I wake up 4 hours later,
With my head clear and my understanding greater,
I look around and I cannot believe,
That he didn’t take my life but instead saved me,
Next to my bed was a simple note,
In words that I or he wrote,
Weather it right, weather it wrong,
He put “I enjoyed last night, stay strong”

So, I dirty danced with death,
Hoping he would take my last breath,
But instead,
I’m now more alive than I have ever been dead.


Wrote on 17/11/2022